Thursday, March 18, 2010 9:38 AM
If I could have my way it'll continue for as many days...weeks...months...years. I knew that at some point this has an expiry date and I thought I was fully prepared. But even before its expiry date I'm already in a state of daze.
How is it that you can fall in love in a matter of weeks and then you found out that it will prolly take you longer to fall out of it? I wasn't strong enough to stay away so this is what happens when you use your heart to think and not your head.
I am just sad that whatever it is that we had can't be prolonged, can't be persued and should not even be thought about. I remembered reading out his horoscope and it said "...prepare to take up new challenges...like an adventurous new romance." Was I his adventurous romance because he said that he have plans to try a new romance.
Mine said "Try not to whine or complain even if you encounter injustice, or troubles may come knocking on your door."
The fact that this is somewhat mutual made it harder to let go but I have to make sure that we could be where we were before all the confessions.
I will treasure the hours and moments we shared vecause that is the only thing that I could have and hold on to and yes...maybe I'll keep him in a special place in my heart because I don't want to forget him...his my bestest and he have given me many days of the best days of my life.
Saturday, February 13, 2010 11:15 PM
I'm trying to get my life back on track. I've received warning from people who cared about me. They told me to get out of it as soon as I can because it will only bring about trouble. One says that I am getting myself into deep and the other tells me that it will only lead ro heartbreaks. I should have listen but I guess this is what I get when I let my heart instead of my head win this game. I drive myself into a mess and now I have to get myself out of it. It was like quicksand when it swalowed me and now I am having trouble reaching out for solid land...somewhere where I can cling on for safety.
They were right. I have gotten myself into deep and now I'm heart broken by the forbiddence of it all. I did not make smart choices and now see what I have got myself into. I feel like a stupid girl. Why oh why didn't I see what's coming? Why didn't I see what it was going to male me feel? Why didn't I see that nothing good can come out of this?
I need someone to tell me that things will be alright. Things are going to be better because I need it to be better for me. I have to tell myself this everyday because if I'm going to let whatever that is happening eat me then I am not going to recover. I'll stay positive. I'm a great girl! I can do this!
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Friday, February 12, 2010 11:40 PM
I suddenly am at lost for words...wondering if it is time for another reflection. But what can i reflect about? Things had been out of hand and frustrating. It has been memorable and fun...
Tears...laughter...joy...life...
Sunday, February 07, 2010 4:51 PM
Thoughts are still swimming in my head...not so good for the soul when it eats you up and takes so much of your energy.
Boys say that we girls think too much and are too detailed. They say that we analyse on every small thing. But how could we not when boys do things that make us skeptics. We doubt and then we want to try to figure out why you are doing all those things that make us think and think and think.
So don't boys! Just don't do things that you are not supposed to do ok???
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Saturday, February 06, 2010 1:30 PM
In life, you're bound to be heartbroken, disappointed, helpless, pressured and stressed. It's like a rule. You can't pass unless you go through it. It's like a regulation. You MUST go through it in order to get the happiness, joy and freedom.
For a while I couldn't believe that I brought myself down and get so stressed up over things. But here's the thing; it's very important to me, which is why it got be so stressed out.
Thank you for friends who care to listen and give me their opnion because now, I feel like I can finally make a decision and start taking matters into my own hands. It's time to lead a life that I want. It's time to be brave and be strong enough to face the consequences of my actions. I got to learn to accept and move on because not everything you want in life comes your way. Sometimes it hurts you in the most heart-wrenching way.
Then I should tell myself that whatever it is, it's going to be ok because I'm strong enough to handle what comes my way.
Thursday, February 04, 2010 11:11 PM
Have you ever been in a situation where you unexpectedly gets drawn to something and then you got addicted to it? You crzve for just a little contact because it will satisfy you. Then little by little unbeknown to you, you wanted more.
I think this is how I'm feeling right now and I better pull myself like that before I get in too deep!
Friday, January 29, 2010 9:20 PM
When you're a teacher, you meet students from all walks of life. Sometimes they depend on you to guide them and they look up to you because there is no one else that they can look up to.
They may come from a broken family and you have to help them to stay on the right path. You somehow have to learn to be patient because they need you to be patient with them.
Sometimes you see yourself in them and you can't help it but feel so attached to them. You want them to nurture the best that they can and you just want to help them.
Then you started to care and you feel so attached to them and it's possible to stay away from that.
It's a lot of work but it's so fulfilling.
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