Dr Conall O'Sullivan is almost a mirror image of Ryan Gosling so even if the subject is boring I don't mind staying there just watching him. Andin that...literally and I think Dr Conall caught her and he stumbled on his words and started to blush. Geeky guys are cute. He is a Maths geek. Everytime he talk about formulae he had this very enthusiastic face on. And it's kinda cute...geeks are now deliciously handsome.He has lots of research papers so if you go and google his name, you'll find some research paper about options and such.
Anyway Nyai is in the hospital. Something to do with the heart. I won't be able to come down and see her tomorrow. I spent 6 hours with her today at the hospital though coz no one else was around. I'm gonna help with the laundry tomorrow so mum won't be too tired...aren't I being a good daughter?
LOLX!
3 years later.
Thursday, February 28, 2008 12:00 PM
Today marks the third year that I have been blogging. And what a good number coz its my 444th. It has been…I don’t know what word to use here. So anyway I was reading through the entries that I have made and realize that I have forgotten that all those things I blog about did happen.
For example, I had forgotten that I almost got into a relationship with a guy who lives in the UAE. Like how absurd is that?
Then there was this entry that threw me back to what has been happening in my life. I was angry with a certain friend and had lashed out my anger in that entry. At the end of that I wrote “I remember you asking me if this friendship will turn out into something more and I told you that it would never be. I didn’t regret saying that. But the last time I said ‘never’, it turns back against me and I end up having a miserable time of my life. So never say never”. I still have mot learn my lesson. Along the way I realized that there were quite a number of entries about him. I have made a resolution to stop. I promise!
Back in September 2005, I did an entry on my first job and it is quite hilarious. I only remembered getting bored!
Then I got flashbacks of my days in the dentist’s room every single Saturday to get my braces fixed. I realize that I do not have a picture of my braced teeth. What a waste!
I haven’t quite learned to carefully mince my words before I furiously type an entry. However I do made some improvement in my writing. Sometimes things just can’t be changed. Sometimes people just don’t change.
My Best Friend's Wedding
Wednesday, February 27, 2008 12:07 AM
I finally remembered what I wanted to write about.
My Best Friend's Wedding is one of my favourite movies and I can't remember if I had cried the first time I watched it. I think I was in Secondary 3 or 4.
Never would have thought that my life would turn out the same way that Jule's did.
"Sophomore year at Brown, we had this one hot month...yes. But of course you know me. I got restless so I got the nerve to break his heart...and he gave me this look and then he said that the thing that makes me wanna cry is that I am losing the best friend i ever had. And that moment I knew that I felt the same way. So i cried for maybe the third time in my entire life, kiss him and then we have been best friends ever since. We've seen each other through everything, losing jobs, losing parents, losing lovers, we've travelled all over...best times of my life maybe. Drinking and talking."
"I remember this one night, like six years ago. He takes a razor blade, cuts his finger and takes my hand and does the same to me. He says swear, when we're 28 and if we've never married, we'll marry each other...we've never talk about it again I don't know what makes me think of that."
What have we got ourselves into?
Tuesday, February 26, 2008 4:23 PM
I was surfing the net in search of articles or photos of Turkey (to get inspirational). Then I spotted this on yahoo:
"Anyone who been to Singapore and Turkey? Which country(singapore or Turkey) you prefer if you have choice to live in? and why? i been to singapore and i dont think the people is nice. they are nice to fair skin people. its very hurtful. im not fair skin. i would not doubt that singapore is the most beautiful country and some are nice people but not most of them. those working in the gorvernment tough nice people but not much the local."
Like wow! This was posted a year ago by the way.I am not sure if this is a good step but I would have to agree on the part when this person mention that locals are not so nice. I think lots of our locals are 'ugly' people. Have you been to Starbucks? Almost 80% of the time I patronise Starbucks I will not received good service because I am not Ang Moh. I recall my colleague's experience when she told me that some girl behind the Starbucks counter wasn't smiling when she was being serve but the girl behind the counter was smiling widely when serving an Ang Moh after her.
Isn't it sad? Singaporeans who don't treat Singaporeans well. We will be hosting YOG 2010 and we are still a long way from being graceful.
I was blinded
Monday, February 25, 2008 8:27 PM
I think I might have just found a way to let go or maybe on the way of doing just that. Like I said before, I'm just in control that way. I don't know how to mourn about it.
I scare or might have lost certain people along the way due to my selfishness and unawareness of my behavious. I'm quite ashame of myself. I wish there is a way to turn back time.
If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern
Sunday, February 24, 2008 8:29 PM
I'd stood her up. Not intentionally. Not out of malice but out of love. Imagine not meeting someone because you loved them so much. Imagine hurting someone, making them feel lonely, angry and unloved because you think it's the best for them.
Hmmm
8:19 PM
I forgotten what I had wanted to write about. Thanks to my laziness, the thought has left my mind. I really can't remember now.
Anyway, on the spur of the moment, Effa and I went to watch P.S. I Love You just now. After waiting for about two years for the movie to open, it will be a shame if I miss it so I decided to put my assignment aside which is due this coming Tuesday and go watch the movie.
I wept like a sad case! What Gerry did for her in the movie is just so touching. Not that I didn't know what was coming but watching it just bring tears to my eyes...and gosh his accent was brilliant in the movie. Gerard Butler, I beleive is not Irish. And so does Jeffrey Deam Morgan. And they both are hot in the movie. Jeffrey got naked in the movie. *wink wink*
However it is definitely not an A grade movie. The novel is definitely better than the movie and I was quite disappointed by the outcome. Nevertheless I enjoyed it.
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She slowly tore open the envelope, carefully trying not to rip the paper as she slid the card out.
Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Open your heart and follow where it leads you...and remember, shoot for the moon... PS. I will always love you...
PS I Love you by Cecelia Ahern
Singapore 2010
Thursday, February 21, 2008 8:30 PM
I jumped up and down in front of the TV after IOC president Jacques Rogge announced that the first ever Summer Youth Olympic Games will be held in Singapore. Like how cool is that. I rushed home just to watch the telecast live.
Video is not out on YouTube yet but you can check out:
I scored 39 on Dr. Phil's personality test Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.
woooooohoooooo
10:19 PM
I AM STILL ON MY WAY TO A 2ND UPPER CLASS DEGREE!!!!
My Business Strategy overall score looks like a B!!!
I am so happy I did a Chicken Dance!!! I'm such a nerd that way!
Amuse me...
11:57 AM
What do you do when you tell a guy that you like him only to found out a few hours later that he was officially dating someone – not from him but from his Friendster profile. Worst still, when you told him you like him, he was on a date with his soon-to-be girlfriend.
Between you and him, confessions started to flow and you cried quietly in your room. He said he is sorry for being such a loser of a friend and betraying or ruining your loyalty. He said he didn’t realise that you like him and he did thought of chasing after you when you spend a few hours talking with him after not seeing each other for 3 years.
Nine years but you guess it meant nothing to him because if it does mean only if a small fraction, then you know he will never make you feel this way. You have been complaining to your friends about him but you can’t seem to let go. Then you realise that maybe…just maybe you have fallen in love with him. You deny it because he is a friend and friends do not become lovers in the end.
You cried quite a lot however you promise yourself “that’s it, big girls don’t cry!”
Never once he ever asked of your well-being then once in a while messages like “How are you my dear friend” made your way to your handphone. You know its guilt because there are no other reasons to why he is does that.
But sometimes you wished that it had been the other way around, that you and him could work something out.
Then 3 months later, at 6:30 in the morning, he sms you to invite you to his engagement ceremony. He tells you that he hopes you can make it.
What do you do?
Well I already made my decision and I have done so as soon as I pushed him out of my life forever. I told him that I couldn’t do it anymore, that I couldn’t be that friend I was. So I told him that we should cut all ties.
He’s getting engaged…my decision is final and that is to rid him out of my life. No more memories. I’ll put away all the stuff he has given me because I don’t want it to mean anything. I’ll dump it into a box and bury it somewhere. No more thingking of 'what could have been's.
I'm naturally unable to mourn over things that make me sad. it will catch me off guard for a few minutes and then I will be back to getting on with life.
The smell of your skin lingers on me now You’re probably on your flight back to your hometown I need some shelter of my own protection Be with myself and centred clarity peace serenity
I hope you know I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It’s personal myself and I We got some straightening out to do And I’m gonna miss you Like a child misses their blanket But I gotta get a move on With my life It’s time to be a big girl now And big girls don’t cry
The path that I’m walking I must go on I must take the baby steps till I’m full grown Fairytales don’t always have a happy ending do they And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It’s personal myself and I We got some straightening out to do And I’m gonna miss you Like a child misses their blanket But I gotta get a move on With my life It’s time to be a big girl now And big girls don’t cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard We play Jackson and UNO cards I’ll be your bestfriend and you’ll be my valentine Yes you can hold my hand if you want to Coz I wanna hold yours to We’ll be playmates and lovers and share our secret world But it’s time for me to go home It’s getting late its dark outside I need to be with myself and centred clarity peace serenity
The weekend
Sunday, February 17, 2008 8:58 PM
Saturday...
I met up with Ben and Yanping for lunch. Too bad Terence couldn't be here, otherwise it would be the four of us and Wei Liang misses Wei Liang. We went to Fig & Olive. My Spagetti with BBQ chicken is pretty good.
Before Ben took off and Yanping and I go for some shopping, we took a picture...I mean we took some pictures.
Sunday...
I am not too sure how much we delayed this but Atiqa and I finally met up for a movie. We watched Jumper and it's such a cool movie. After that we went to Ngee Ann City and I did some shopping, actually only 1.
Then I meet up with Nur at Tampines Mall and shop some more...
I saw this sandals in Manja and didn't know that it is from Gisele Bundchen. It's so comfy!!!
This musical box is totally cute. I bought it for my barang-barang.
I guess that is all for now. I realise that I'm starting classes in one and a half weeks and I still have not done my pre-sem assignment...bummer!
Five words short of five hundred
Thursday, February 14, 2008 12:07 PM
It’s quite difficult to write entries with zilch errors and with a grammar and vocabulary oh so well, you’d love to re-read it a couple of times. So I am going to cheat and use Word to help me amend my numerous typing errors (mind you not spelling coz I do know how to spell). Up to this point, Word has corrected one typo error and one grammar mistake. This is getting good.
I do believe that I write well though not exceptionally and I know that there are people who are better than me.
I want to write something that will make people go deep in thought yet not tangled their minds like hundreds of wires would. Let them smile yet not looked crazy or silly (I always told Effa that she looks silly smiling to herself when she was reading something from her laptop), let them frown disagreeing on what I have to say or just feel like the entry they just read had give them a satisfaction from what a good read usually does for me.
Today, I want to talk about the things in life I hope to do or find. Just thinking about it sends shivers down my spine and tingles on my toes.
Skydiving sky-di-ving -noun The sport of jumping from an airplane at moderate or high altitude and free-falling and using one’s body to control direction or movements before opening one’s parachute.
I would love the adrenalin rush of it all. The wind on my face and the freedom of falling from the sky just make me feel like this is the one thing I want to do in my life.
Travel trav-el -verb (used without object) 1. to go from one place to another, as by car, train, plane, or ship, take a trip, journey, to travel for pleasure 2. to move or go from one place to another 3. to proceed or advance in anyway
I’ll start this by saving for a trip to Turkey which I hope to got to at the end of this year
Love love -noun 1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person 2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affectionate, as for a parent, child, or friend
I wish to find love.
Stability sta-bil-i-ty -noun, plural –ties 1. the state or quality of being stable 2. firmness in position 3. continuance without change; permanence
I wish to find stability financially so that I can support myself and most importantly my family. To be able to afford things that I need and want would be fantastic.
Peace peace -noun 1. the normal, nonwarring condition of a nation, group of nations, or the world 2. a state of mutual harmony between people or groups, esp. in personal relations
It seems like there is no such thing in the world anymore. Gone are the days where people can just be happy and be merry. No hatred, just love and peace.
-- All definition brought to you by dictionary.com
Where is it?
Wednesday, February 13, 2008 8:43 PM
This is just too much and I am anxious...I don't remember being this anxious.
Results are usually late but this time around it's REALLY late. Either that or I'm just...anxious. I really need to know what is my result for Business Strategy and Project Management. I am a little worried about Business Strategy and I just hope it's not a C because if it is my chances of getting a 2nd Upper might just slip from my tight grasp.
They are getting really inefficient and I'm getting angrier when I see no emails from them.
The Istana
Sunday, February 10, 2008 2:14 PM
For 22 yrs of my ife I have never made a trip down to the Istana when it opens to the public. So on the 8th of February 2008, Marina and me, together with my sister, Marina's friend Rahayu and Marina's boyfriend Awadh, made a trip to The Istana.
By the end of the day, my thighs and hips felt tight because the Istana is located really really deep in and it was up on a hill. Just imagine the exercise I got myself into!
I managed to see the President!!!! This picture taken was not clear though.
My favourite picture from the day...
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Thursday, February 07, 2008 8:30 PM
Dear Fadhilah,
You've been nice and sweet to me and I really appreciate all the help that you've rendered to me. I hope to be able to do the "Doncha Wish Your Girlfriend Was..." dance for you again as colleagues in the future :) Keep in touch and you still can call me if you need any hel with your assignments.
Take Care!
From: Jefferson.
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He nearly let me shed a tear!
The Choice by Nicholas Sparks
Sunday, February 03, 2008 9:04 PM
As he crossed the parking lot, he thought about both his daughters, his job, his wife. At the mment, none of them gave him much comfort. He felt as though he were failing in practically every area of his life. Lately, happiness seemed as distant and natainable to his as space travel. He hadn't always felt this way. There had been a long period of time which he remembered being very happy. But things change. People change. Change was one of the inevitable laws of nature, exacting its toll on people's lives. Mistakes are made, regrets form, and all that was left were repercussions that made something as simple as rising from the bed seem almost laborious.
"Today, though, Kenneth was just so...bitter, and when I asked about Eleanor, I got the sense that he wished she were dead. And when I compare that to the way he used to feel about his wife, and what's happened to his kids...it's terrible."
When her voice died away, Travis squeezed her hand. "That's not going to happen to us..."
"That's not the point. Th point is, I can't live knowing that I didn't do what I should have done."
"What are you talking about?"
She ran her thumb over his hand. "I love you so much Travis. You're the best husband, the best person, that I've ever known. And I want you to make me a promise."
"Anything."
She looked directly at him. "I want you to promise that if anything ever does happen to me, you'll let me die."
"We already have living wills," he countered. "We did those when we did our regular wills and power of attorney."
"I know," she said. "But our lawyer retired to Florida, and as far as I know, no one but the three of us knows that I don't want my life prolonged in the event I can't make my own decisions. It wouldn't eb fair to you or the kids to put your life on hold, because in time, resentment would be inevitable. You would suffer and the kids would suffer. Seeing Kenneth today convinced me of that, but I don't want you to ever be bitter about anything we chared. I love all of you too much for that. Death is always sad, but it's also inevitable, and that's why I signed the living will in the first place. Because I love all of you so much."
I'm like...
Friday, February 01, 2008 10:25 PM
So excited about my new wallpaper. I decided to change it and chanced upon this supposedly 3D wallpaper. I keep looking at it. It's so calming. Now, I have afish tank in my laptop!!!!
Anyway I am not sure if I should do anymore studying. I feel kinda confident but at the same time I am scared that I will freeze once I read the question paper. This is just the problem and the fact that it is an accounting paper just made it all more jittery-ish!
Anyway I didn't realise...might have forgotten that I have Qistina's photo in my phone.
A few...
10:23 PM
"Hey I won't be able to drop by 2day.sori ya.u take care!"
"No prob:)I left something 4 u.I wil drop by next week.u take care ok?"
"Ok thks.Hopefully I will bring u the good news in 4 mths time.aka the 2nd upper class:)"
Honesty is the best policy! Leave the credits alone!
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