She ain't pretty.

I know...

Thursday, January 31, 2008 3:48 PM

I should be studying right now but I really can't concentrate..and I'm eating too much every time I am at home.

Somebody please save me out of this boredom!!!

I'm just gonna stop studying for a while and get some rest and inspiration!

Goodbye

Tuesday, January 29, 2008 10:05 PM

I finally saw him at 5PM, stopping a while for a chat. Before I sat down I said hi.

"Hi Jefferson."

"Hi."

"Haven't seen you the whole day, didn't get the chance to say hi."

"I know. I miss you already."

"I miss you too."

I got back to whatever I was doing, he went back to whatever he was doing.

Today I said goodbye to Jefferson. His last day is on Thursday and he told me that I should drop by for while. Most of the RMs should be going out for a drink. Invites were sent out but all of the ROs are not going.

"You coming on Thursday?"

"No lah, I will be studying."

"Exception lah."

"I might drop by."

About half an hour late...

"Fadhilah."

"Yes?"

"Come down on Thursday lah." He said almosy shyly.

"I'll try. I might be meeting a classmate in school. Will you be staying till late?"

"Of course."

I think i will just drop by. For seeing him again for the last time sake. The office is going to be so quiet without him.

Something happen to me...

Monday, January 28, 2008 10:31 PM

It is almost indescribable. It's like you feel it but you just can't put it into words. It's like when you read it in a book and you know exacty what the writer was saying. You thought "Ah, I know how that feels." But when it comes to describing that feeling yourself, you just can't find the right words. Let me try...

I was at work, talking to some colleagues. I was actually on my way to the ladies but along the way I ran int a couple of people and stopped to chat. After a few minutes of friendly banter on some stuff, I made my way to the ladies. I opened the door leading to the back room office and saw him through the slightly frosted glass. Pulling the door open, I saw him in front of me and immediately broke into a huge smile. Then I felt my heart beating just a little faster. He smiled back at me widely.

"Hi Jefferson!"

"Hi cantik!"

He is always calling me that. Quite the flirt.

I think I might just finally realise I am attracted to a guy like him but alas he is taken. He has a girlfriend of 9 years!!!! Almost 10! He is not the typical good-looker. But his personality and heart made up to that.

I'm gonna sorely miss him when he leaves end of the month. Tomorrow will be my last day seeing him. I will be on leave starting Wednesday...thanks to Managerial Accounting!

Heath Ledger

Sunday, January 27, 2008 10:26 PM

Still quite hard to believe that he is dead and not only that...it's because of drug overdose. He has never struck as a junkie. He is no Amy Winehouse or Johnny Cash, which is why all the question keep popping up. He was never on the news caught with posession of cocaine. So why was he dead on his bed with prescribe and non-prescribe drugs?

When Atiqa first told me i was SUPER SHOCK!!! As soon as i reached my work place, i switched on the PC and immediatey went to yahoo.com.

True enough, he was on the front page.

Has it sunk it yet? Partially submerged!

One more to go

9:31 PM

After a nightmare about time value of money and sleepless nights...and reciting the MM Dividend Irrelavance Theory before going to sleep, FM is finally over. I hope to add 'without a glitch' at the end of that sentence but alas, I can't. MCQ was quite a breeze but Section B was heartbreaking, mind-boggling and as usual, it doesn't turns out the way I thought it would be. I thought I might not be able to finish the paper considering that during the first hour, i spent my time answering MCQs and trying Section B, question 1, on the question paper.Pencil markings everywhere, highlighting the important details but it didn't help me solve the problem any easier!

I'm pretty tired right now because I had only roughly 12 hours of PURE sleep in the last 72 hours. I probably should prepare for tomorrow (it's Monday already!). This ain't gonna be fun!

CLOVERFILED

Friday, January 25, 2008 11:15 AM

When you watch this trailer, you'll know why I said that it got me dizzy. I read some comments on YouTube and someone said that there was a clue to the monster in the last scene. Damn! Now i really gotta watch this movie again. Maybe I'll rent the VCD when it comes out. The comment said that if we look to the right hand corner of the screen at the last scene, you will see that something fell from they sky and into the water and that could be how the monster ended up in NYC in the first place. So now I just gotta see that scene!

Sneezes!!!

Sunday, January 20, 2008 11:52 PM

I actually dunno what to say. It's almost midnight and I am getting sleepy. I am suppose to only send and email to Kev but I am doing something else now.

Oh...I got my teeth all done. It's perfect now. I can smile freely.

And...I watched Cloverfield yeterday. Storyline and concept was interesting but it made my sister and I totally dizzy. (More on it some other time)

That's it for now. I gotta hit the pillow!

Question mark?

Wednesday, January 16, 2008 12:43 PM

I thought I should probably do this at work coz I am not sure if I have the time or be lazy enough to not update. (I've been trying to call a customer who is in Indonesia and couldn't get her, so freaking pissed now).

Anyway, I do receive some questions on my latest entry right below.

1. Is this the story of how you and your new boyfriend get together?

First of all, no, there is no boyfriend and by saying 'new' is totally unfair because my last relationship was freaking 6 or 7 years ago. It's not like I just break up with someone 6 days ago you know.

2. It sounds like he likes you.

I know, this is a statement rather than a question but it defnitely highlighted some question marks all around the statement. NO, I don't think this guy I had write about likes me. He NEVER will...he is just not that type....I think, well I dunno.

3. That is the only thing that popped into my mind when i finish reading the entry. It does sounds like he likes you and he has asked the same question a couple of times.

Haiz...sorry my sister, NO, I don't think he likes me.

4. What's his name? Is he cute? Where does he work?

This coming from my most ridiculous friend. I'm not going to reveal his name and where he works but I'm going to tell you that NO, he is not cute!

5. Are you attracted to him?

Erm...definitely NO!

So there....please refer to the FAQs above if you have the urge to ask me questions that are about 100m within range of the 5 qns.

Meanwhile, yesteday was Yanping's birtday and I had surprised her with a delivery from noelgifts.com. I was thinking 'If I had to be at work during my birthday, I surely want a pleasant surprise to make my day.' Glad that she like it because I have no idea what to send her.

So people, if you do have any other questions, please feel free to leave me a comment. I welcome it...really.

Fact or Fiction?

Sunday, January 13, 2008 6:18 PM

We were sitting in a very comfortable atmosphere. Soft jazz music was playing in the background and despite the constant chattering from some fellas behind me, I was relaxed. I took out my file, my calculator, and pencil case. I set it on the small round table in front of me. I started to read the question in the study guide and immediately worked on the problem. My companion soon sat in front of me with a grande size Starbucks. The whipp cream on top looked so appetizing I had the urge to splurge on a cup but decided not to. We had both shared a Buddy Meal at KFC a few minutes ago, so I better not indulge myself with something that is probably gonna add kilos to my weight.

We sat down in silence and I told him that I am working on question two. He said he was done doing that and I rolled my eyes. I knew what he meant. I saw him flipped through the last few pages of the study guide. The heading read 'Suggested Solutions'. Who was he kidding? I continued to work on the problem, trying not to look at the suggested solutions. But I did checked on it a few times, to make sure I was right on track.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him holding his pen still, not writing anything. I looked up and saw him looking at me. Was he watching me work?

"Yes?"

"Erm...nothing." He said and cast his eyes down on the study guide. I shook my head and my lips curved into a smile.

"Can I ask you something?"

I nodded my head, not looking up from the problem I was working on. After writing the last digit, I looked up at him.

"If a Chinese guy wants to marry a Muslim girl, he has to convert?"

"Yes."

"If a Muslim guy wants to marry a Chinese girl?"

"She has to convert. It's Islamic law."

I continued to work on my problem.

"What if the Chinese guy who wants to marry the Muslim girl doesn't convert?"

"Hmmm, her family probably disown her. He has to convert."

"Why?"

"Erm...I honestly can't explain that...I don't know how to."

We had went through this before. A couple of times at least. I still have no idea why he wants to know all these. He even had asked me about pre-marital sex!But we're adults, so I approached the matter maturely. I gave him my honest opinions.

"You know, I cannot see myself as someone who would sacrifice his current achievements and career for a girl he likes or loves. I just can't see myself doing that."

"You mean you can't see yourself getting married?"

"Ya, I really can't see myself doing that."

I shrugged off his statement. It's a modern and dynamic world. Women and men found themselves dependent on their career and feel that marriage or a relationship will dampen that achievement. Why do they think that way? Couldn't they juggle both? It's easier said than done of course.

I don't need your opinion...but just think about it.

The craze...

Friday, January 11, 2008 9:28 PM

...of Facebook.

W:"Fadhilah, you got Facebook?"

Me:"Yes. You?"

W:"Ya, add me. Then we can play Vampire!"

H:"I got Facebook too! Add me."

S:"Me also leh. Add me."

W:"Ok i add all of you, then i invite to Vampire. You all accept ok? So i can get more points!"

This is the conversation between me and my colleague who are in their late 20s and one in her 30s. You would thought it would be a group of teenagers, crazy about Facebook.

Effa got me into it and i admit that it is pretty addictive. But of course, my discipline thought me to curb it and keep it short. I could not understand the craze though. You would think that this kind of things only appeals to a certain generation but no it doesn't. REALLY!

I have a 40++ colleague who is now learning to use Facebook so she can someday have her own account and not use her husband's.

Anyway, I will be working tomorrow and on Sunday at 10AM I will be meeting Kev and Sean to discuss MA.

I gave a call to Ben too. Telling him that I was thinking about him and decided to give him a call. I said we should meet up after CNY together with Yanping. Terence can't join us this time around because I am sure he will be in Reading.

Alright I shall stop here....wanna check my Facebook!!!

Lots of Pain

Tuesday, January 08, 2008 12:13 PM

I had another round of dental surgery yeterday and as usual, was numb to the feeling but definitely not the sounds of the drilling. This time around it was super scary and my mouth became so tired after opening out wide for so long. I slightly remember feeling a lil bit sleepy and was almost going to sleep but i stop myself. Dr Wong told me to close my eyes you see so I kinda went along and felt drowsy. after one hour in the chair, my upper lip was still numb but the pain slowly started to ease in and on my way home in the MRT, the effectes of the full pain started to spread around my upper teeth.

As soon as I reach home, I lay down on my bed, sleeping the pain away. As soon as I woke up I was reminded of teh whole ordeal when the tingle of pain reached my head. It was painful. I thought that I will not be in so much pain this time around but i was so wrong! For last night only, I wasn't blabbering and making noises. I kep my mouth shut because it was too painful to talk.

The pain is gone now but I don't dare eat any solid food especially those that requires chewing. After almost 6 months with that gap on the upper side of my gums, it feels weird to feel that a crown is finally placed there.

However, this ain't done yet. I have part two next Friday. You still need to wish me luck.

100-51

Thursday, January 03, 2008 9:37 PM

51 FAMOUS LAST WORDS by MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
52 BUT IT'S BETTER IF YOU DO by PANIC! AT THE DISCO
53 BECAUSE OF YOU by NE-YO
54 KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY GIRL by GOOD CHARLOTTE
55 HELLO by ELECTRICO
56 OUTTA MY SYSTEM by BOW WOW / T-PAIN / JOHNTA AUSTIN
57 L.D.N by LILY ALLEN
58 CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE SOBER by EVANESCENCE
59 SHUT UP AND DRIVE by RIHANNA
60 COME BACK TO ME by VANESSA HUDGENS
61 CLOSER by TRAVIS
62 LONG WAY 2 GO by CASSIE / LIL' WAYNE
63 AMERICA by RAZORLIGHT
64 LAST NIGHT by P. DIDDY / KEYSHIA COLE
65 U + UR HAND by PINK
66 STRANGER by HILARY DUFF
67 OVER IT by KATHARINE MCPHEE
68 OVER YOU by DAUGHTRY
69 SHORTIE LIKE MINE by BOW WOW / CHRIS BROWN / JOHNTA AUSTIN
70 SAY GOODBYE by CHRIS BROWN
71 WIND IT UP by GWEN STEFANI
72 INTO THE OCEAN by BLUE OCTOBER
73 THE SAME OLD SKY by SKIVE
74 JUST SO YOU KNOW by JESSE MCCARTNEY
75 ZINGY by AK'SENT / BEENIE MAN
76 CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT by JAMIE KANNEDY / STU STONE
77 PATIENCE by TAKE THAT
78 SUMMER LOVE by JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE
79 STARLIGHT by MUSE
80 ICE BOX by OMARION
81 GLAMOROUS by FERGIE / LUDACRIS
82 LIL' STAR by KELIS / CEE-LO
83 NEVER BE LONELY by THE FEELING
84 LIGHT UP THE SKY by YELLOWCARD
85 HOW TO TOUCH A GIRL by JOJO
86 P.D.A. (WE JUST DON'T CARE)by JOHN LEGEND
87 WAKE UP CALL by MAROON 5
88 SAY IT RIGHT by NELLY FURTADO
89 GIVE IT TO YOU by EVE / SEAN PAUL
90 TEENAGERS by MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
91 TELL ME by P. DIDDY / CHRISTINA AGUILERA
92 NEVER AGAIN by KELLY CLARKSON
93 LOVESTONED by JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE
94 STAR GIRL by MCFLY
95 1973 by JAMES BLUNT
96 LOOK AFTER YOU by THE FRAY
97 CLOTHES OFF by GYM CLASS HEROES
98 ALL BECAUSE OF YOU by TAUFIK BATISAH
99 TU AMOR by RBD
100 THIS IS WHY I'M HOT by MIMS

Looks like Justin is all over the countdown. he has like 5-6 songs in the chart and it looks like Bubbly, Apologize, Hate That I Love You will only be in the charts next year.

I had actually plan to list down the key things that happen to me in 2007 but i don't have a proper list yet. Maybe soon...or never?

Eiffel...I'm In Love

Tuesday, January 01, 2008 10:01 PM

I kinda like this movie. I think i prolly try to get the VCD and watch it again. It's in Bahasa Indonesia and I don't understand like 50% of what they are saying. Nevertheless, here's my favourite scene from the movie. Well not really. My favourite scene was the one in the end but i guess when Suria showed it on TV they cut the kissing scene because there was a kissing scene between Adit and Tita and I don't want to put that one on. Well here it goes: