Sometimes it gets to a point where I'm really sick of being responsible. I'm not very responsible I'm just responsible and it's this "being the eldest" shit that makes me sick. Does being the eldest entitles me to the responsible title? Why can't someone else take over? I'll give it up if it means that I can do whatever I want without caring what other people would say.
It gets tired when you know that you have to do something because no else can't or no one else doesn't want. When others want to have fun and I couldn't because I'm stuck to pleasing people and not thinking about myself. I would love to have a change sometimes. I'll go out everyday and you stay at home. Everytime I brought this up it doesn't mean people will listen. They'll just nod their heads and then ignore me. Can i just knock your head with a wooden spoon?
Open your eyes, look around and you'll realise that the world does not revolves around you. It's time to think about how and what other people and maybe you should also start thinking about after life.
Someone please get me out of this freaking role that I so wanna give up!
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