I suddenly feel defeated and I don't think I like this feeling at all. I am not sure if I really like him so I kept my mouth shut and then feel like I should have just said so. Our chat was cut short because I felt sleepy and feeling a little giddy.
I feel like things could never turn out good and then I will prolly will not see him for a very very long time. When I receive a message from Joan telling me that he was at the airport checking in his things, that did it. I dunno where it came from but the unwanted tears start to roll down my cheeks. I had to rush to my room and lay down for a while...
I am ok now and will be ok.