Not everyone you met in your life turns out to be a gem of a friend. It’s rare that you meet someone genuine and someone who really wants to keep you for the rest of their life. Some people react when they see that you have met someone new. They show emotions and behaviours that allow you to see that they are jealous and that they want you to know. But then now that you are all theirs, they back away and treat you like a nobody. Why? Are you seeking attention on purpose?
I believe that there is no such thing as “I have a few best friends.” I believe that there is only one of them and the rest are your good friends. When people grow up, relationships between them become tense and strained. I’m a firm believer of loyalty (it’s just my Leo nature) and when someone betray my loyalty, I might just hate them.
However I am also someone who tends to forgive someone easily, especially if I like/love them.
Like how yesterday Bryan decided to dump me and left me waiting for him to tell me that it is time for lunch. I found out that he left at about 1230PM. He has no decency to at least tell me that like a day before. Then this morning, he has to be all Bryan and call me by that name that now everyone calls me by. I was still angry so I turned and looked at him angrily and I did not say anything or call him by that name that only I do.
I don’t know if he picks up any of that 10 seconds contact but boys being boys, I’m sure he has no idea what he has done. I don’t feel like there are any genuine intentions on his part in regards to this relationship. I think that he was never a friend. He is just someone I know from work.
Then just now he asked why I did not call him for lunch and told me to have lunch with him tomorrow. He is complicated!
I miss Joseph…lots! I don’t know how he is doing at the moment because we have not managed to get in touch since he left 8 days ago. He is one of the most sincere people I have ever met. He never fails to say hi everytime he sees me, never fails to smile at me and never fails to carve a smile on my face. There is now no more reason to log in to MSN and no more reason to have something to look forward to at work.
You know how sometimes you just feel like someone is the one and you just have no way to describe why or how? Well I think that this is how I feel now and I know I have told myself so many times not to feel this way but my heart have always conquered my brain. My feelings have always shadowed my thinking and it will always be.
