It seems like a huge part of my life is about people drifting away from me. First my primary school friends. People like Yati, Kamalia and Nazira…I have no idea what they are doing and where they are…who they are now. Then it was my secondary school friends. Mas, Faz, Hanim, Zu, Wan and Yana. I feel like secondary school was where I had the most friends and had the best of times in my life. I do still keep in touch with Yana and fate has brought us together when I met up with her at my work place, out of all places. She is just working nearby and we had gone out for a couple of lunches together.
I’m so glad I am still keeping in touch with Yanping, and Ben, my poly mates. Probably because the things I went through with my primary and secondary schoolmates were a hard lesson to learn and I wouldn’t want to repeat the same mistake all over again. AND I love them both to bits to let them drift away from me. Then there’s Atiqa and Marina whose presence in my life I’ve come to appreciate.
And now, it feels like my sister and I are losing some sisterly time. There were no more late night chit-chats on our bed before we go to sleep because her nightly routine is reserved for her princess friends as she keeps awake till 2AM msn-ing.
There shouldn’t be any surprises that people like Yanping or Atiqa (also my poly mate) would be the first to know anything that has been happening in my life because there are my first points of contact in my life right now. They are both just an email away. I’m happy about something and they will be the first to know. When I’m sad, furious or unsatisfied with things at work, they will be the ones to know all about it first.
Sometimes I guess you may find the term sisterhood with people who are not your family.When you have a sister,you are born into it but when you found a friend and found a connection with them you grew fond of it and form a tie you wouldn't want to break.
"eh tomorrow henny nye birthday la.thats my 1st priority."
The princesses will always be her first priority. Since all of these began,I somehow feel reluctant to hang out with my sister. I rather go out with Yanping or just laze around at home and do the things I like to do eg reading and writing. But of course,she is my sister and I somehow couldn't stay angry with her long. Just last week I was complaining about her to Yanping but as soon as I saw the necklace with the mirror locket I immediately thought of her and without a second thought brought it to the counter and made my payment for it.
And now, Joseph is leaving to some place called Bangkok and I do not want to lose him like I did with the others. I’m beginning to love his company and crave his presence around me. Tomorrow will be the last time that I will be seeing him and I am going to make full use of that time. Life is going to be quite quiet without him.
