Wednesday, October 31, 2007 9:09 PM
I have no time and no battery life to do a proper entry so just gonna post 2 pics.
My colleagues and me
My supossedly 'Greek' dress.
Monday, October 29, 2007 10:06 PM
18 December 2005
Ian didn’t really walked out of my life, he was just gone; rarely there. He was there like a piece of memory I could not let go. He was there in my life but he appeared only through a whisper of his name. I couldn’t find a way to let go but since he was rarely there for me, I soon forgot about him, suddenly grateful that I didn’t have to think about him again. He was happy, he looks happy. She looks like a good girl for him, probably the best. I didn’t ask how his relationship with Sarah was. The truth is I did not want to hear him say “We’re great, she’s great.”
I was selfish, hoping that one day things will just go wrong and then maybe like Kaitlin said “Trust me, when she broke up with him, he’ll run back to you.”
Things began to go my way. I went out on a few dates and eventhough none of them lead to something more, I was enjoying being single…no strings attached. Then I met Hayden. He’s funny, good-looking and spontaneous. We went on a few dates and I began to like him more and more.
“This is it, I think it’s him.” I told Kaitlin.
Then a few days later, probably two days later, Ian suddenly called me on my mobile. It was unlike him to do that. He told me that there was going to be a party at his place and he wants me to be there.
Three days ago, I was at the party and I was ecstatic to see friends that I have not seen for 6 years. We hanged out and talked like we had not been separated for that long. I noticed that Sarah wasn’t there so I asked Ian when we were alone.
“We broke up.”
I didn’t ask why and I knew he was not going to tell me until he was ready.
The night was still young when people started to leave, so a few of us decided to go to The Dark House to party the night away. Everyone else was a couple except for Ian and me so the both of us just stayed with each other. We talk and dance and we avoid the alcohol. I think we both knew that it’s better to stay sober and he was driving. Both of us had never drink an ounce or a sip of alcohol in our whole lives and I knew we both wanted it to stay that way.
The day after, I found myself thinking about Ian and not Hayden. I got scared and started to mentally scold Ian for physically walking back into my life. Hayden called a few times and I wasn’t as excited as I was before. I shouldn’t even think about Ian in the first place because he is my friend. He is just a friend.
“You know, I will be really happy for you if you’ve found someone, so tell me, who is he?”
“Ian, he is no one, we’re not dating exclusively.”
It was the truth; Hayden and I were just casually dating. That’s all it is.
So tell me, what am I doing? Am I being pathetic?
`(C)ramia
Monday, October 22, 2007 10:56 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2007 10:36 PM
its been almost two weeks since i last post. been so busy so just droping a note that i wil be posting as soon as i can...there is just so many things to say and i think that it is best if i just take time and write down everything on paper first. so take care my bloggers!!!
Monday, October 08, 2007 9:49 PM
I have finally printed out my learning journal. I'm satisfied with it so i don't want to delay the printing. I will hand it in tomorrow whic is two days earlier. Another reason why i had it printed tonight is that mum would probably be angry if i keep my laptop on this desk any much longer. You see, Hari Raya is coming in about four days time so she won't want us to have our 'things' lying around the house. Yes, having my laptop placed nicely on the desk is counted as lying around the house which also equals to messy.
I don't want her to get angry so i think i should hurry and place it inside my laptop bag and take it out when i need it. Caution though...I'll be lazy to take it out once i put it in.
So bye bye for now, i'm not sure when i'll be posting again.
Sunday, October 07, 2007 11:48 PM
Thank you Andin for reminding me or actually telling me that Dr Brendan would like us to include PRINCE2 in our learning journal. I told Andin that i didn't realise he had asked for that and he told me that I must have been too amazed by him that i didn't realise. Maybe she is right.
So i am online right now reading PRINCE2.com....there is so much to read and i don't want to drag it to the weekday. So i really want to finish by tonight and its 10 to midnight. I have already typed in about 3 paragraphs but I don't think i'm capturing the real depth of PRINCE2.
So i think i better get back to it now...I'm sure Andin is alseep by now dreaming of Dr Brendan.
Oh before i forgot, thank you my Merrick for commenting on the shoe...I was wearing it for a few minutes yesterday and today like a lovesick and crazy girl. I was too attached to the shoe to take it off...BUT my main objective was to see how long it'l take me to finally feel the pain or to see if any blisters might appear you see.
Saturday, October 06, 2007 2:50 PM
Daniel Agger. I just love saying his name...I know that is is already the sixth but it's never too late.
So i went out for a little drive today. Just want to try out Whizzcar and it was quite convenient. My parking sucks!!! HAHAHAHA!
So we went to TM together with grandmama and Nur. I finally bought my shoes for Hary Raya at Isetan(i'm surprised they were playing Hari Raya songs). I am totally in love with it so I just buy it. I don't care if it was not a discount items.
I just realised that terence is already in Reading...never say goodbye to him...oh well, times are getting busy and we all just tend to forget stuff but I have my friends in my thoughts. I'm wodnering what is Lifen doing right now...what is Faith up to, Lynn, Eliz....where are all of them now?
Then last night i finally went to Geyland and n the way i saw Thiam Hock and said hi to him. Then i saw Adi and we chatted for a while. Saw Al-Khair too but we were seperated from throngs of people so i didn't say hi and lasty i saw Marina. It's nice to see all your friends once in a while and it is nicer to see that they remember you.
